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It has been 9 years since my daughter passed away. She would have been 44 this past July. Lately I have been really struggling with the loss of my only child. I go along doing what I do playing tennis, golf and socializing with my friends and then it hits me. I am not like them they are chattering about their adorable grandchildren and sharing laughs over how funny they are as well as making comments about how their children think they are built in baby sitters. I am happy for them and envious of being a built in baby sitter for their grand children but I have been getting such a yearning and sick feeling lately. Does anyone else experience the same feelings. I try to go to sleep at night and all these thoughts go racing through my head...did Christy know how much I loved her was she afraid when she died because she was alone except for her dogs, would she had lived if I had gone back into the house when I heard the dogs barking instead of being afraid I would be late for work. I have never had a dream of Christy and so many others talk about how their children come to them in their dreams. If there is life after death was she disappointed in me becuase I did not go back into the house? I want these thoughts to go away and leave me with just the fond memories of the many good times we shared. Is this normal after so many years why do I feel like I am back sliding?
I have had the joy of having your heartbeat next to mine for 9 months. The sweet sweet memories of your childhood, where you believed in all things good, and kind, and magical. I miss your dreams my boy. I miss your everything. I am grateful that your came into our lives, and gave us so much. You changed the world in so many ways. I hope you have all the joy, the laughter and goodness the heavens can bring you. All this is and more you so justly deserve. I love you, and so do so many.
Do not judge the bereaved mother. She comes in many forms. She is breathing, but sheis dying. She may look young, but inside she has become ancient. She smiles, but her heart sobs. She walks, She talks, She cooks, she cleans, She works, She is, but she is not, all at once. She is here, but part of her is elsewhere for eternity.....
That is my life now. I miss my son viscerally, every second of every day until I see him again....I love you Ryan! I put your Christmas tree up on your grave under the oak tree on our farm here in Tennessee. This is my first Christmas without you and it just plain stinks. Maybe it will get better, or I will get better at managing it. Wait for me by the gate son, I will be there in a blink....
wish that day that you had to leave this world, never happen and you was still in the land of the living. Our daughter is older now, you would of been proud of her. Rest In Peace, with love.
I want to share a special gift this Christmas that my daughter Christy gave to me her last Christmas. I did not realize it until she was no longer with me. She was helping me take down the tree before returning to her home in NYC. You see she knew she would not be here for the tomorrows we all take for granted. She called friends, remembered them on their special days, bought cards to send for no particular reason other to say I am thinking of you, rejoiced in her friends and family, made an effort to be there for those who needed to talk or were less fortunate, shared her smile with strangers with a hello or “have a nice day!” Christy would buy a turkey (she was allergic to) so she could give it to those less fortunate. She told me I know I am not going to live to be old that is why I am trying to do everything I can right now. I don’t think she knew she would not experience another Christmas but she did know to make the most of everyday. So this is my gift to all of my friends. Do it today don’t leave those little things until tomorrow, wait until you have more time to reach out to someone or put off that phone call to just say hello. Christy understood the meaning of today! Merry Christmas! I miss her so much...
I see your face when I look at your nephew. Qadan has your mannerism. Not only that, but he said,"I want to change my name to Balewa. "You touched the lives of everyone you met. Love never dies. RIP "Huggy Bear."
know gifts to send know cards to open should be happy birthday but to day brings so much saddles but love I have In my heart keep me going through life without you hope angel bobbyjo will give u good birthday party like ones we had together living here without you so so losSt with out you always love u with al my heart mam happy11 birthday xxx
Mommy today you are gone 5 years. I miss you.. Love you to the sky the moon the stars.
It's been nine years son today since you left us......how time has just swept by. Even though there are only a handful of people that still remember, just know that you are forever etched in my heart. I like so many which we could have you just one more time, but i know that one day son, I will see you again. Loving you always
I wish I could see Michael just one more time, standing in front of the door, looking at his beautiful smile. I would love to just talk with him for a while. I love you Michael more than words can express. I will hold your picture close to my chest.
God bless John and may he live the life he deserves in the afterlife.
It's will be 20 years this June 4th since u passed .Sometimes it seems like yesterday and other times it feels like a hundred year has went by since the last time I saw your face our hugged and kissed u or heard your voice. I miss you with each passing day. You are the best mother there ever was.
I just wanted to say I love you so so much, and I still miss you every single day! It's been 18 years since I have touched your hand, or brushed your hair or heard the giggle, Happy Valentines day my princess! I LOVE YOU ENDLESSLY!
After spending 55 christmase's together you are spending your first Christmas in heaven, Though your not here with me I will try to celebrate the season as best I can knowing that your love and memories are always with me.Until we are together again and we can enjoy christmas together again I will always love you.
It has been 83days now since you gone, I really miss you this weekend beccause all the memories we shared flood back of our good time together. It seems unreal and expected you to call or walk through the front door. I love you even you not here but I hope you can hear me
It has been seven month's to-day 9/7/2014 since you left me to take your place in heaven, but the pain and lonelyness is still with me I doubt i will ever be normal again untill we are together for eternity . forever in my heart Ray
Whishing you were here to celebrate your 75th birthday on Tuesday May 6th it is so lonely without you, Love you forever until we are together again an we can celebrate our special days together forever. all my love Ray
You at one time had a entry space for those leaving messages to also leave their e-mail address. Now it seems to be gone. I wish so often that I could answer the people who took the time to read about Bob and leave a message. Could you possibly put that back in?They leave such nice messages and I wish I could tell them how much I appreciate it.
i miss and love very much you will always be your best friendt you willalwaysbe in heart
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